Wednesday, September 26, 2012

That thing I never, ever, NEVER talk about

http://jezebel.com/5946643/reddit-users-attempt-to-shame-sikh-woman-get-righteously-schooled

Please read the above article before reading any further. Read it and then maybe you'll understand a little more about me. Not because I'm Sikh or brave enough to ever stand up for myself like she did, but because I'm hirsute.

hir·sute

[hur-soot, hur-soot] Show IPA
adjective
1.
hairy; shaggy.
2.
Botany, Zoology . covered with long, rather stiff hairs.
3.
of, pertaining to, or characteristic of hair.
 
 
If I could change one thing about myself, this would be it. I can deal with being overweight, because if I really buckle down and put my mind to it, I can lose weight, but the excess hair is a huge embarassment that I have no way of getting rid of. OK, that's not entirely true, it would probably get better if I lost weight. OR if I wanted to go through lots of painful laser hair removal treatments or have lots and lots of expensive tests run by my doctor. But, the problem with doing those things is, I never, ever, talk about this, as in I would rather DIE than talk about it to anyone, ever.
 
Even now, just writing this out, thinking that anyone could read this, is giving me anxiety, but if that girl can rock her full beard, mustache and sideburns, and then defend herself when the picture has gone viral, then I can come out of the closet and talk about my excess body hair. I've thought about writing about this a million times, I know I'm not the only girl with excess hair, but to say it out loud, write it on the internet where anyone can read it, makes me want to puke.
 
OK, OK, that's being really overdramatic. I have talked about it and I didn't die. I talked to my doctor about it, years ago, had tests done, there was nothing conclusive and we tried birth control, but that didn't work. I had laser hair removal treatments, 7 of them, VERY painful and reduced my hair, but I still have too much, in my opinion. I have talked to a few close friends/family members about it and even a boyfriend or two (which by the way, is the WORST conversation ever! No guy wants to know his girlfriend shaves as often, if not more often than he does). The point is, I don't want to talk about it, I want to push it under the rug and hide from it and never, ever, not EVER talk about it, but what does that accomplish? Nothing.
 
So, I read that article today and decided it's time. One of the reasons I started writing this blog was to help people, I'm sure I'm not the only woman who is desperately searching for her happily ever after. If I can help even one person, then I feel like I've done good and added some positive points to my Karma bank.
 
If you want to read this and laugh at me, because I am a freak and belong in the side show as a bearded lady, knock yourself out. That doesn't make me any less of a person, but I can't say the same for you. If you read this and you know someone who is hirsute, PLEASE share it. We are NOT alone! Do a search on Google or even Pinterest for Hirsutism and a million links come up. We shouldn't have to hide, but we do, because society says that women should be hair free. We shouldn't have to torture ourselves finding different ways to remove the hair that nature put there for a reason.
 
Personally, I know I'll never feel comfortable enough to leave the house without shaving. I wish I had half the self confidence of Balpreet Kaur, she is my new hero. Balpreet, if you read this, Thank you. Thank you for every girl that suffers from hirsutism and is afraid to show anyone who she really is. Thank you for standing up for yourself and giving me the kick in the ass to stand up and say something. You are amazing and I wish you lots of good health and happiness.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Mini-vacation

Less than a week until school starts and I'm taking another mini-vacation, before I start the term. Most of my weekend will be spent gaming, but I did get over to the scho ol to buy my books and I took a day trip to Seattle for The King Tut exhibit that is showing at the Pacific Science Center.

Two of my friends and I drove up and had the most wonderful time. We got there early and were able to visit other exhibits, before our window of time for the King Tut exhibit.

I was really excited to find out they had a tropical butterfly garden. It was AMAZING! They had butterflys of every size and in many different colors. They were flitting all over and around us. I couldn't stop taking pictures!

The King Tut exhibit was breathtaking. There all kinds of statues and other artifacts (including a toilet seat, no joke!), again, I couldn't stop taking pictures. There were several rooms to walk through and lots of information to take in.

For lunch, we went to Ivar's Acres of Clams for lunch, my favorite spot in Seattle. It's on the waterfront and has a wondeful view and the BEST scallop appetizer I've ever had. They cold smoke the scallops and serve them with a greens tossed in a vanilla bacon vinaiggrette all on a garlic crisp. Trust me, if you're ever in Seattle, head to Ivar's on the waterfront and get this appetizer!

After lunch we wandered Pike Place Market for a bit, got some more great pics and then headed home. It was a perfect day. Good friends, good food, good weather and a fantastic time at the science center.

Tomorrow, I'm heading out to stay with H and M for the weekend and play all my favorite games. I'm in charge of baked beans for the potluck on Saturday as well as making breakfast both days. I'm going to try out a breakfast casserole recipe. Hopefully it turns out.

Next week, I'll be back in school, almost full time, while working full time, I'm going to be crazy busy. So, I'm going to enjoy this last weekend of fun and good food with friends and lots and LOTS of games!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

What makes me happy?

Sunshine
My little beagle, Gavin (I can't think of him without getting a HUGE smile on my face, I love that little dog, more than I ever thought possible!)
The ocean
The M-C family
My friends
Car dancing
Yummy food
A good book
A favorite TV show or movie
Laughter
Cooking
Playing games
BEER!
Cheese
Bacon
Snow Patrol
School
Disneyland
Oneonta Gorge
Ice Cream
Chocolate
Flowers
Herbs
Hiking
Camping
Movie Theatre popcorn
Previews
Eating at gourmet restaurants
Road trips
Games weekend
Being a geek
Grey's Anatomy
Lord of the Rings
Harry Potter
Munchkin
HOCKEY!
Seeing my favorite band in concert
Powell's
The Chinese Gardens
Tea
Wine
Farmer's Markets
Lillian
Beast
Mother's Bistro
The Screen Door
The Melting Pot
The Waffle Window
Hawthorne
Miniature Golf
The waterfront
The MET
Earning an A
Good happy hour
Giraffes

OK, so I know this is kind of a weird, random post, but that's where I'm at right now, a weird random place. All my life, all I've ever wanted was to fall in love, get married and have a baby. I really had no other ambition outside of that. Well, I'm almost 40 and that hasn't happened, it's time I re-train my brain to stop focusing on that and find what REALLY makes me happy.

You'll notice that men, dating and love aren't on the list of what makes me happy, because they don't! I don't need a man or to be dating or to be in love to be happy. A very good friend keeps telling me that I just need to do what I love, whatever makes me happy and to stop worrying about meeting someone. He's right. I KNOW he's right, but damn, I've spent my whole life searching for Mr. Right, it's hard to stop!

That's where this post is coming from. Reminding myself that there is a huge list of things that make me happy and men, love, dating, even sex, isn't on that list. If I never fall in love, get married and have a baby, my world will not end. There is more to life than those things. I need to re-train my brain, do what makes me happy and forget all the rest.

Find what makes you happy. Nothing else matters......