Summer break is here. WOOT!

I can't even tell you how excited I am to be on break for two months! I've tried not to plan too much, so I can really enjoy my time off. This last weekend, I had no plans on Friday, I stayed in and read a book and watched some Netflix. Saturday, I met up with some friends for a Greek Fest, then a barbecue and several rounds of Mah Jongg. Sunday I had a migraine coming on, so I stayed in and read and watched movies, I even had a nap.

NO HOMEWORK! It was the perfect weekend!

Coming up, another laid back weekend. Gaming on Friday, food cart lunch on Saturday, small barbecue on Saturday night, then nothing on Sunday, except maybe a massage :)

Oh and NO HOMEWORK!

In a couple weeks, I have a trip planned to the beach and to visit my dad and his new wife on the Southern Oregon coast. Should be a nice trip and again, there will be NO homework :D

I am pretty sure that by the time fall term gets here, I'll be ready to back to school, but right now, I don't even want to think about it. I want to enjoy my time off and see all my friends, before the madness starts again :)

The Streak Continues

Three terms, five classes, five A's :) I am really proud of myself that I have been so successful in school. This is a huge accomplishment and really big boost to my ego.

I still have a long road to go for my degree, but I am confident that I will be able continue my successes. I am motivated to be a great student and get straight A's all the way through. It's not easy working full time and going to school, but I have faith in myself, I can do this!

Someday I will be a parent....

I will not see my child as a burden, but as a gift.

I will not neglect my child, because I have better things to do like play video games, get high, get drunk, go out with friends, party, get my nails done, etc..... Spending time with my child will be the best, most important thing I ever do.

I will not take a vacation from my child, rather my child and I will take fabulous vacations together. Even if it's just camping out in the backyard, it will be fabulous!

I will not have so many children that I can't give each child the attention they need and require. I will feel so blessed to have one child, if I'm lucky enough to have two, I will bend over backwards to make sure both feel loved, wanted and protected.

I will not abuse my child physically, emotionally or any other way.

I will not complain to any one and every one about how horrible my children are or how tired I am of them. Our children are a reflection of us, if they're horrible, that's our own doing.

I will read to my children, play with them, study with them, cook for them/with them, spend as much time as I can with them.

Will it be easy? No. Will it be perfect? No. Will I make mistakes? Yes.

Will it be worth it? EVERY MINUTE!

I am not a parent, but I want to have a child more than I want anything else in the world. I am fortunate to have many friends who are wonderful examples of how good parents should be, but unfortunately, I know just as many people who can barely take care of themselves, let alone their child or children. It makes me really sad and frustrated beyond belief.

I have been trying to write this blog for days, but it was so negative, nothing was coming out. I think finally I said what I needed to say and said it the right way. If you're one of the bad parents I'm talking about, it's not too late, you can make it right. Please, for the love of your child, fix it now, before it's too late!!!

 

 

My current music addictions....

Heart on Fire by Scars on 45. I heard this song for the first time and was mesmerized. Love it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l0vdhcXfu8Q

Tattoo by Jordin Sparks. This is an older song that I have rediscovered. Fits me lately.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCeuexPgeSU

Love the way you lie, by Eminem. I've been a fan of Eminem for a long time, this is a new one from him. I can't get enough of it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U

Wild Ones by Flo Rida. This song gets stuck in my head and won't leave. Great song to dance to :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpOR_HuHRNs

Llorando by Rebekah Del Rio from the movie Mulholland Drive. Very powerful song. She has such an amazing voice.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAbmfVzPHFg

Breath of Life by Florence + the Machine from Snow White and the Huntsmen. Love the movie, LOVE the song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROtBbOcdFxo

Refreshed and renewed

I just had the most wonderfully relaxing vacation and I feel like a new person. There was nowhere I had to be. Nothing I HAD to do. It was perfect.

Never in my life have I had such a restful vacation. I visited with friends, took a hike, did a day trip to Seattle, ate great food, sat by the pool, slept in, got a massage, got a facial, bbq'd, learned some new games and most importantly relaxed!

Being able to get up when I wanted and do whatever I felt like doing was really therapeutic. Not only that, but visiting with my friends and catching up with people I haven't seen in months or years, was so good for my emotional well being.

The last seven months have been so crazy with work and school, battling depression and a broken heart, I needed "me" time in a bad way. I think I have come to terms with some of my unresolved feelings and gotten over most of my broken heart and depression. I can't go backwards, I can only go forward. What's done is done, I'm going to leave it and walk away. Looking back reliving those feelings, those moments in time, only brings me down.

I want and need to continue these good, positive feelings, because for the first time in months, I feel happy. I am at peace and feeling almost whole and like myself again. It won't be easy, I have this horrible habit of sabotaging myself, but I'm going to do everything in my power to be smart and protect my heart and well being.

The following post was on Facebook today and is just what I need as a reminder to help me continue my happy feelings and be the best me I can be:

Summer is here

Finally, summer has arrived and I'm so happy she decided to arrive while I was on vacation and able to enjoy the beautiful weather.

This week has been wonderful. I've visited with people I don't get to see very often and did some much needed work on my yard.

The best part is that I've been able to sleep in, rest and relax. I feel GREAT. Better than I have in a LONG time! Today I am continuing the rest and relaxation theme and am getting a massage and facial.

As much as I wish my friend would have been able to come and visit, I am thankful he wasn't able to make it this week. I know I wouldn't have been able to rest and relax the way I have been. I would have loved to see him, but honestly, this is better.

The rest of my weekend will be spent visiting with friends and enjoying our beautiful Oregon summer weather :) Next week, I'll be ready to jump back in to work and school with a new attitude!

WOO HOO, yay for relaxing, restful and stress free vacation!